*sigh*
Situation 1: Clinic Sri Indah
So I went to the clinic and got my face checked..I swear the doctor tak lalu nak tengok my face..all red and swollen..allergic reaction does that to your face sometimes..people like me just have to 'make-do' with our body system :p as much as I would like to complain, I have nothing to complain about really..I don't really like seafood and I don't really wear make-ups..so insyaAllah saye ok :)
let's go back to the clinic stuff..
as I parked my car, I peered into the clinic and saw gazillions people tengah tunggu turn masing-masing..
you know what I did?
*sigh*
I stayed in the car dalam 5 minutes..
why?
*sigh sigh sigh*
I was seriously embarassed to go in because of my face! muke saye nampak teruk dari depan, dari tepi..even dah pakai cermin mate pon still nampak obvious lagi yg my face was all swollen macam mangse dera :| more specifically, macam monster yg baru half transformed, if you get what I mean..not yet monster-like but it's getting there..big nose, small eyes, red forehead, non-stop garu-garu muke..
*SIGH*
suddenly..
Allah tiupkan several naluri :p
"Never be embarassed of yourself! no matter what you look like, you should just march into the clinic and demand attention from the staff! just 'own' the room!" (gedik sangat inner thought macam ni)
"You are a patient, not a beauty pageant!" (a slap on the face)
"Don't be too perasan, mimi..people might not even look at you in the first place!" (a second slap in the face)
I can't rase malu dengan diri sendiri..if kite malu dengan diri sendiri, orang lain lagi akan pandang rendah dengan diri kite..it's not because kite ni ego and rase macam tak layak untuk dipandang rendah oleh orang lain..no..but it's unnecessary..kite tak buat ape-ape yag memalukan pon..I look the way I looked last night not because I wanted to or because I asked for it..so no point untuk rase malu in the first place :) therefore, i walked into the clinic with my head held high..ceyyy..haha..well, I was wrong..people did look at me..some kids even stared at my face..I was just too tired to even care..haha..
Situation 2: KFC
So I work at KFC now as a very 'hardworking' cashier..haha :p it's my first ever part-time job..sometimes I didn't even bother telling people that..when they saw me in my uniform and asked me whether I was working at KFC, my instant reply would be "YES"..and then, "silence"..haha..you should see their facial expressions..
total shock with their mouths slightly open :-0
the moment I said, "ouh, actually..I'm a part-timer"..you could instantly see the relief in their eyes..suddenly their mouths started to close down a bit and became a straight line :-|
and I continued on by saying, "I'm on my semester break"..this is the moment where their mouths started to curl upwards to form a smile :-)
*sigh*
3 expressions in 3 seconds..haha..I don't blame people, honestly..they want to hear great things about you..all the flowery stuff..somehow working at KFC is not very grand..it doesn't pay well..you'll have to work long hours everyday..I admit, it is a bit harsh..but there is absolutely nothing wrong if you do work at KFC..you have to 'own' it..ceyyy..no, really..if you're the cashier, be the best cashier you can possibly be..even when people look down on what you do, just give them a smile :) it's like telling people "I don't care what you think of me..I'm having a blast here!"..huhu..
*sigh sigh sigh*
One day, I had a foreigner as my customer..he started ordering food in english and I pon started la acknowledging his orders in english jugak..I asked him several questions to further clarify his orders..at the end of our 'jual beli' he said, "oh, you can speak english"..this might sound macam mengangkat bakul sendiri (haha) but please don't get me wrong..that's not the point here..I was far from happy to hear his comment..
as expected, my mouth went like this :-0
also as expected, my inner thought went, "a million curses on you! pfft!"
also also as expected, I gave him the "are-we-not-supposed-to-know-how-to-speak-english-just-because-we-work-at-KFC" look
well, sir..we might not be able to speak english like you do but I don't think you can speak Malay like we do either!!! this might sound tak logik for I pon might not be able to speak his native African language but really, who's counting? my country, my inner thought, MINE MINE MINE!!! :)
*happy mode on*
like I said earlier, I can't be embarrassed of things like these..I can't be embarrassed of my work..I work willingly, by my own personal choice..if I were to be embarrassed by my own decision, then I have nothing..I'll go nowhere..there will be no solid ground from which I can stand on..I need to be proud of what I do, no matter what it is..I am proud of what I do now, no matter what it is :) insyaAllah..
*several deep breaths*
I think I'll be ok, insyaAllah..I pray so hard everyday that I won't get discouraged by people's stereotyping habit..I used to do it all the times too sebelum I started working at KFC, back when I didn't know better (I am ashamed of myself for this)..I think I understand people better now..some of them might not have options in their lives like some of us do..working at KFC might be the only option they have..if everyone is privileged enough to further their studies at universities and succeed in everything they do, we might need robots to work at KFC and tol PLUS :p again, this is merely a harmless opininon..
*sigh*
conclusion:
There are more to each individual than what is apparent to us :)
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