Self-Check :|

I just realized something today..

I'm a pathetic mess, unrecognizable even to my eyes..

The question now is, "how did I get here?"

It's like what Liz Gilbert said, 


"When you're lost in those woods, it sometimes takes you a while to realize that you are lost. For the longest time, you can convince yourself that you've just wandered off the path, that you'll find your way back to the trail head any moment now. Then night falls again and again, and you still have no idea where you are, and it's time to admit that you have bewildered yourself so far off the path that you don't even know from which direction the sun rises anymore.” 

She's right..and it's scary..

I'm losing myself..somewhere between my room and the staircase to my kitchen, I just lost myself..bit by bit, minute by minute..

At this point, I don't really know what I want anymore..much less, what I need..

“They flank me-Depression on my left, loneliness on my right. They dont need to show their badges. I know these guys very well....then they frisk me. They empty my pockets of any joy I had been carrying there. Depression even confiscates my identity;but he always does that" 

So tonight, I reach for my squareboxed-non-responsive computer screen yet again..pouring my inner thoughts via my blog, hoping that the solutions might creep into me somehow..

I'm weak and full of fear..Uncertainty and depression have shown up and I'm scared that they will never leave..I'm terrified that I will never really pull my life together..

I'm quoting Liz Gilbert again,

“I was full of a hot, powerful sadness and would have loved to burst into the comfort of tears, but tried hard not to..then someone came and said that you should never give yourself a chance to fall apart because, when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again. You must practice staying strong, instead.” 

If only there was a giant red stop button, the one I can press on each time I want to stop myself from falling apart..

I can't :)

Here is the notion of the day : I can't !

*sigh*

Situation 1: Clinic Sri Indah

So I went to the clinic and got my face checked..I swear the doctor tak lalu nak tengok my face..all red and swollen..allergic reaction does that to your face sometimes..people like me just have to 'make-do' with our body system :p as much as I would like to complain, I have nothing to complain about really..I don't really like seafood and I don't really wear make-ups..so insyaAllah saye ok :)

let's go back to the clinic stuff..

as I parked my car, I peered into the clinic and saw gazillions people tengah tunggu turn masing-masing..
you know what I did?

*sigh*

I stayed in the car dalam 5 minutes..
why?

*sigh sigh sigh*

I was seriously embarassed to go in because of my face! muke saye nampak teruk dari depan, dari tepi..even dah pakai cermin mate pon still nampak obvious lagi yg my face was all swollen macam mangse dera :| more specifically, macam monster yg baru half transformed, if you get what I mean..not yet monster-like but it's getting there..big nose, small eyes, red forehead, non-stop garu-garu muke..

*SIGH*

suddenly..

Allah tiupkan several naluri :p

"Never be embarassed of yourself! no matter what you look like, you should just march into the clinic and demand attention from the staff! just 'own' the room!" (gedik sangat inner thought macam ni)

"You are a patient, not a beauty pageant!" (a slap on the face)

"Don't be too perasan, mimi..people might not even look at you in the first place!" (a second slap in the face)

I can't rase malu dengan diri sendiri..if kite malu dengan diri sendiri, orang lain lagi akan pandang rendah dengan diri kite..it's not because kite ni ego and rase macam tak layak untuk dipandang rendah oleh orang lain..no..but it's unnecessary..kite tak buat ape-ape yag memalukan pon..I look the way I looked last night not because I wanted to or because I asked for it..so no point untuk rase malu in the first place :) therefore, i walked into the clinic with my head held high..ceyyy..haha..well, I was wrong..people did look at me..some kids even stared at my face..I was just too tired to even care..haha..


Situation 2: KFC


So I work at KFC now as a very 'hardworking' cashier..haha :p it's my first ever part-time job..sometimes I didn't even bother telling people that..when they saw me in my uniform and asked me whether I was working at KFC, my instant reply would be "YES"..and then, "silence"..haha..you should see their facial expressions..

total shock with their mouths slightly open  :-0

the moment I said, "ouh, actually..I'm a part-timer"..you could instantly see the relief in their eyes..suddenly their mouths started to close down a bit and became a straight line  :-|


and I continued on by saying, "I'm on my semester break"..this is the moment where their mouths started to curl upwards to form a smile  :-)

*sigh*

3 expressions in 3 seconds..haha..I don't blame people, honestly..they want to hear great things about you..all the flowery stuff..somehow working at KFC is not very grand..it doesn't pay well..you'll have to work long hours everyday..I admit, it is a bit harsh..but there is absolutely nothing wrong if you do work at KFC..you have to 'own' it..ceyyy..no, really..if you're the cashier, be the best cashier you can possibly be..even when people look down on what you do, just give them a smile :) it's like telling people "I don't care what you think of me..I'm having a blast here!"..huhu..

*sigh sigh sigh*

One day, I had a foreigner as my customer..he started ordering food in english and I pon started la acknowledging his orders in english jugak..I asked him several questions to further clarify his orders..at the end of our 'jual beli' he said, "oh, you can speak english"..this might sound macam mengangkat bakul sendiri (haha) but please don't get me wrong..that's not the point here..I was far from happy to hear his comment..

as expected, my mouth went like this  :-0

also as expected, my inner thought went, "a million curses on you! pfft!"

also also as expected, I gave him the "are-we-not-supposed-to-know-how-to-speak-english-just-because-we-work-at-KFC" look

well, sir..we might not be able to speak english like you do but I don't think you can speak Malay like we do either!!! this might sound tak logik for I pon might not be able to speak his native African language but really, who's counting? my country, my inner thought, MINE MINE MINE!!! :)

*happy mode on*

like I said earlier, I can't be embarrassed of things like these..I can't be embarrassed of my work..I work willingly, by my own personal choice..if I were to be embarrassed by my own decision, then I have nothing..I'll go nowhere..there will be no solid ground from which I can stand on..I need to be proud of what I do, no matter what it is..I am proud of what I do now, no matter what it is :) insyaAllah..

*several deep breaths*

I think I'll be ok, insyaAllah..I pray so hard everyday that I won't get discouraged by people's stereotyping habit..I used to do it all the times too sebelum I started working at KFC, back when I didn't know better (I am ashamed of myself for this)..I think I understand people better now..some of them might not have options in their lives like some of us do..working at KFC might be the only option they have..if everyone is privileged enough to further their studies at universities and succeed in everything they do, we might need robots to work at KFC and tol PLUS :p again, this is merely a harmless opininon..

*sigh*

conclusion:

There are more to each individual than what is apparent to us :)

Paul Arden by My Father :)

Setiap tahun on my birthday, ayah saye akan hadiahkan saye buku..next year punye birthday pon confirm buku jugak..haha..honestly, tak tahu la nak happy ke nak sedih..haha..so in order to be fair, saye pon akan bagi die buku jugak la on his birthday every year..orang putih kate, "an eye for an eye"..if u tumbuk mate i, i tumbuk la mate u jugak..haha..

ok, enough babbling..

moving on..

*deep breath*

last night's book was:

Whatever You Think, Think the Opposite

by Paul Arden

ugly truth: Last night baru saye betul-betul bukak and bace buku ni (I'm not proud of myself about this) :|

*sigh*

*longer sigh*

beautiful truth: The book was schmacking awesome!!!

*happy mode on*

____________________

on the first page of the book, Paul wrote:

Let us start off on the right foot by making some wrong decisions  

Paul continued on with an example: 

In 1881 George Eastman, a junior clerk, left his safe job in a local bank to start a photographic company..

But here is the interesting part..

Seven years later, he changed his company's name to "Kodak", an odd choice since it was meaningless and in those days nobody gave random names to serious products. His reasons for choosing the name were that it was short, not open to mispronunciation and it could not be associated with anything else..

____________________

Beautiful quotes by Paul:

We try to make sensible decisions based on the facts in front of us..the problem with making sensible decisions is that so is everyone else..

A son said to his father, 'Dad, I'm in trouble.'
The father asked, 'Are they going to kill you?'
The son said, 'Oh, no, no.'
His father then said, 'Son, you don't have a problem.'

You can't afford the house of your dreams..that's why it is the house of your dreams..so either find a way of getting it or be satisfied with dissatisfaction.

Whatever decision you make is the only one you could make..otherwise you would make a different one..everything we do, we choose..so what is there to regret? you are the person you chose to be..

Great people have great egos; maybe that's what makes them great..so let us put it to good use rather than try to deny it..life is all about ME anyway..

Conclusion:

Your vision of where or who you want to be is the greatest asset you have!

FAIL ONCE.

FAIL AGAIN.

FAIL BETTER.

In order to succeed in your failure, you have to think of your failed situation as a good place to start from..

Before & After :p

BEFORE:
     I used to think that driving was the hardest and the scariest thing to do..
     I didn't see the point of learning how to drive in the first place..
     I wanted a personal driver..

bits and pieces of my story:

bersumpah to NEVER EVER tukar lane

then..

ade niat untuk tukar lane tapi TAK PERNAH tukar betul-betul pon

then..

changed lanes sambil MENJERIT "AAAA!!!" sampai jantung rase macam nak pecah

then..

purposely BAWAK TEMAN dalam kerete so that die boleh tolong informkan when to tukar lane and when not to tukar lane

then..

berjaye tukar lane sendiri tapi dihon or dipandang 'panas' MULTIPLE TIMES by pro-drivers

then..

tukar lane sambil PUSING SATU BADAN instead of tengok belakang via rearview mirror

then..

SIMPLY tukar lane :p

AFTER:
     I still think driving is hard, just not the hardest..
     Learning how to drive is necessary..
     I still want a personal driver (if possible) but I don't care if I don't have one..

kesimpulan hari ni:

It's not how good you are, it's how good you want to be :) 

Don't run out on your faith! always and always have faith in yourself and in what you do..you will only get better at something if you keep on trying aka PROGRESSION..insyaAllah you will get to the end safely..the major key is to ISTIQAMAHTAWAKAL..

even though something is hard, don't stop..

even though something is scary, never stop..

even though you don't think you can do it, just have faith..

insyaAllah everything will be ok..aminnn :)

***so today, I'm gonna try to pack chickens flawlessly..haha..

It's Beyond "Money" :)

One Day..

saye pegi giant dgn my dearest mummy..tibe-tibe saye ternampak ade sorg macik tengah stack tissues dekat atas rak..

I couldn't stop looking..

I went to another aisle searching for coffee..

I got my coffee and continued walking..

I turned back, she was still there..baju uniform giant tucked in, stacking tissues..

*sigh*

my heart sank to the core when i saw her ..not because of what she was doing, but because of her age..

macik tu dah tua..probably someone's grandmother..

*sigh*

all that I could think of mase tu was, "how bad can her life be until she has to do all that at her age? imagine kalau macik tu mak aku? imagine kalau satu hari nanti aku jadi macam tu? nauzubillah..mintak jauh la, ya Allah.."

yesterday I realized how selfish I was to be thinking that way..

sebab saye tak doakan untuk macik tu sekali..saye mintak diri saye dan family saye dijauhkan life yg macam tu and yet, macik tu is living THAT life..

my heart sank when i saw her..her heart must have sunken deeper..

kadang-kadang kite kene belajar hidup susah..our experience makes us wiser..wisdom is "beyond" money :)

kesimpulan kite today:

percaye pade qada' dan qadar Allah..Allah tak akan menimpekan ujian pade seseorang melainkan yg mampu ditanggung olehnye..

NOTE: berdoa tanpe henti..doa jugak adalah usahe kite >.<

Life Finally Got Interesting :)

Alhamdulillah, ya Rahman hu ya Rahim..

for:

     1. The time well spent nowadays :p
     2. The strength to actually go for it in the first place
     3. The patience to actually work for it and on it now
     4. Making people understand my random decision
     5.  Each feeling that You make and allow me to feel

Kesimpulan kite hari ni:

COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS EVERY SECOND OF EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY HOUR OF EVERY DAY! 

Always and always take the time to mengucapkan syukur kpd Allah SWT everyday di atas segale rahmat dan nikmatNya ke atas kite dan keluarge kite..Faham dan amati betul-betul this one basic human nature:

There ARE people out there who are much much more less fortunate than us in so many ways

 ::the list continues on and on::

*sigh*

A problem can be like a river so wide, it swallows you whole..

*sigh*

But ask yourself this: Is my problem more important than life itself?

Note to yourself this: While you're sitting down and worrying about all the wrong things, times fly by..

Now tell yourself this: Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand. What you've been out there searching for forever is in your hands..all these..

OXYGEN

LOVE
FAMILY
FRIENDS
OPTIONS
OPTIONS
MORE OPTIONS

When you figure out that you actually have all these, it sure makes your problem seems so small..Therefore, no matter what the world brings you, just cherish what you have and LIVE..

Now I understand the hikmah behind my KFC :) insyaAllah..

Sudden Craving~

i suddenly have a mind-numbing-unable-to-breathe kind of 'craving' for this:

the giant white gate which separates malaysia and thailand..for me, it symbolizes:

F.R.E.E.D.O.M

haha..dramatic sangat statement..but seriously, this is the only thing that i can think about for these past few days..haha..well, ok..bukanla nak cakap yg saye tergile-gilekan structure batu ni :| i am craving for the idea behind it..the ability to break free! 

conclusion: sometimes the right decision is not always the best one!

I Need to Calm Down :|

ape saye buat hari ni?

watched a lot of tv + slept a lot of hours

it's honestly funny how i often ask myself this:

if other people can do it, then why can't i?

the answer is simple:

i am me, i am not other people

is my answer disappointing?

to me, not really

to other people, maybe

what exactly do i want?

*sigh* 

tak tahu la..i just feel like talking to someone at the moment..tapi bende ni takdela penting sangat sampaikan nak pakse orang untuk dengar my sob stories..huhu..hence, blogging is the next best thing :)

*sigh* 

i just wanna be me..i wanna do things that i like..i don't wanna do things that i don't like..if i don't think i can do something in particular, then maybe people should listen and believe me..as for my current state, i can't live up to people's expectations and i don't expect people to live up to mine either..you are you and i am me..if by any chance we become friends and make each other happy, then that is beautiful..if not, we tried and it couldn't be helped.. 

conclusion of the day?

i am officially DEPRESSED

Daddy in the Dungeon

since i wasn't doing anything at home for these past few months, i took the chance to reread some of my favorite books..

as for me, it was: quite entertaining~

as for my mom, it was: me being SUPER LAZY! 

as for my dad, it was: a sign of DEPRESSION!

*sigh*

honestly, moms and dads all across the universe can be very dramatic sometimes :s huhu..moving on with my new entry..

what's with the title of this post?
whose daddy am I talking about?
who is this daddy person? 

JOSEF FRITZL

One complex man and his 24 years of undetected crimes

The Crimes of Josef Fritzl: Uncovering the Truth

by Stefanie Marsh and Bojan Pancevski

he was once a respectable engineer from Amstetten, Austria..that was before he built the 'cellar'- the silent witness to a tragedy of prolonged incarceration and sexual abuse..

and this girl was his primary victim..his own daughter..

Elisabeth Fritzl

bits & pieces of the tragedy:

InsyaAllah :)

Epic~

my property lecturer, john page explain la pasal satu malaysian case ni:

john: "da plaintiff, mr. yusap (yusop) owns a rubber plantation in malaysia.."

one student: "what was his name again, john? how do we spell it?" 

john:  "errr..mr yusap..it's like europe with a y.."

hahaha..

Beautiful Words :)

duduk sorang2 sebenarnya susah sebab sangat vulnerable in terms of pemikiran n perasaan..tengah2 nak study nanti tibe2 je teringat family dekat rumah, pasar malam, keropok lekor..tengah2 nak solat, tibe2 je terase lapar sangat even baru je lepas makan..semuenye tak kene..tengah2 tengok TV, takde pulak rase ape2..rase macam nak tengok sampai esok pagi ade la..pfft..orang kate syaitan ni suke ganggu orang yg duduk sorang2..wallahualam..just jangan menjelme sudah la..haha..astaghfirullahhalazim..2 minggu lepas, ade sorang kawan yg sweet sangat name KD bagi penande buku yg die buat sendiri :) it says:

Jika sedar diri ini jauh daripadaNya, entah kemana pun kita tidak pasti. Yang hanya ada sekarang adalah kita yang sering melakukan dosa, tenggelam dengan arus dunia. Yang hanya ada sekarang adalah hamba yang terlupa bahawa nafas akan terhenti. Yang hanya ada sekarang adalah hamba yang sudah kenal dengan seronoknya dunia ciptaanMu, ya Allah. Tenangkan hati dan pandanglah awan. Pandanglah awan. Lihatlah dengan mata hati yang Allah sedang melihatmu. Lihatlah dengan mata hati yang Allah sedang memanggil air matamu.

T.T Allah sentiase ade dengan kite..kite je yg selalu lupe..susah senang hidup kite semue ketentuan Allah..Rasulullah s.a.w pernah ditanye mengenai suhuf (risalah pengajaran) Nabi Musa a.s dan salah satunye: "Aku hairan kepada orang yg telah meyakini akan adanya qadar (ketentuan Allah s.w.t) tetapi mereka marah2 bila sesuatu musibah menimpa."

(ME!) 

Kesimpulannye, kite kene redha dengan ketentuan Allah..KD cakap, Allah sebenarnye sedih dan malu sangat kalau Dia tak makbulkan doa2 kite T.T hmm..starting from now on, kite kene la sabar dan yakin dalam berdoa..InsyaAllah kite akan dapat ape yg terbaik untuk kite..aamiiinnn :)

Not So Long Ago :)

fareha & niena..da VVVIPs in my life..huhu..

niena, jue (already isteri orang) & ain yin :)

ashley..my ex-roomie :)

aida, ika & adeeba..great bunch to hang out with..

kimberly, dora, aida, samantha, dixit (kegilaan semue mase tu..haha..), ariffin & elaine..i can't believe i still remember their names :)

aida & ika..pukul 2 pagi, drama ragut dekat airport..haha.. 

navaa :) we still chat every now n then..really miss all da midnight-chat we had dekat atas tangge sambil minum bubbletea..almost setiap hari kot..haha..

raihana..da havoc-est :p

rindu sangat dekat korang semue :) 

Disaster in Japan :|

most shocking pictures of da recent tsunami..

bile kite tengok gambar2 ni, instantly kite tau how bad da tsunami really was..it's not just about berape million harte yg musnah..it's more on da thousands of people yg involved..their lives..ikutkan hukum manusia, no one deserves to go through this terrifying experience..sebab kite kan manusie..we break easily..sakit gigi pon dah bole jadi gile..imagine losing everything in one big wave..lagi la kan..tapi kalau ikutkan hukum Allah, ade hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian tu..no matter how bad it is..Die tengah 'sampaikan' something dekat kite n we have to learn from this..n it wasn't just a message sent to da japanese, it was a message sent to da whole world..it makes u think, u know..in d end, it doesn't really matter who's winning in a war or how many countries u've bombed because when mother nature as big as this swoops in, no one stands a chance..da next thing u know, u're history..take japan for example..it was a really strong country (still is) n no one wanted to mess with it..but now, even rakyat die nak makan pon susah sebab radiation fear..kesian kot sebab sangat unexpected kan..nonetheless, i sincerely hope n pray that japan will recover soon..insyaAllah..

Pictures That Make U Go 'Awwwhh' + 'Eeeee' :)

i think someone needs to save da hamster..soon..haha..

ini serius geram -_-"

hey! mate tak bukak :s

jari2 itam >.<

cuddles :D

d epitome of cuteness..haha..ya Allahhh..

Baby Emerson Made My Morning :)

hahahahahahaha..

A New Level of Pain :|

gigi bongsu nak tumbuh..sakit die honestly sampai tak boleh nak tido..it's been going on for a few weeks now tapi before ni tak ade la hari2..but now dah 4 straight days tahan sakit..continuous pain..macam nak tercabut gusi..pipi pon sampai jadi partially numb..macam ade orang cucuk2 your gusi with maximum force..i am perfectly serius :p tak tahu dah nak buat macam mane sekarang..dah makan ubat 4 bijik so far tapi macam tak ade kesan pon..still sakit yg massive jugak..Allah je yg boleh tolong sekarang ni..da interesting part is ade la bace satu doa untuk sakit gigi ni, courtesy of buku doa dato' harun din..syukur alhamdulillah sangat2 sebab setiap kali bace mesti da pain macam hilang..but only for a while though..after setengah jam or so, sakit tu datang balik..then bace lagi doa tu..hilang sekejap sakit..then another round of pain would take place balik shortly after that..well, at least da doa works compared to ubat2 yg dah diconsumed tu..i think da best solution now is to cabut gigi ni terus n only then i can kiss da pain goodbye..huhu..sebab tak tahan sangat sakit mlm tadi, da second thing i did after makan ubat was to google harge tiket balik malaysia..haha..paranoid much? pfft~ but seriusli..to get it removed here will cost me like $10,000! maybe not that much kan tapi a lot la..so memang nekad la nak balik sebab klinik ajeet caj RM450 je k..banyak kot difference die..even campur harge tiket airasia pon it will still be cheaper to get it done in malaysia..haha..so, ok..that was last night punye case..tibe2 azan subuh berkumandang..ceyyy..n it finally knocked some senses into me..

kesimpulannye, mimi..get a life! even though u're in pain pon, but orang lain punye sakit lagi teruk kot..hmm..macam tak layak je nak complain2 (but it really2 hurts! haha)..lagipon exam nak dekat..obviously u're not going anywhere anytime soon :s

Speaking of Timing :|

tadi after klas, pegi la rumah kawan..mase tu stress level agak tinggi la sebab baru habis klas kan..plus, kene jalan kaki bawah panas terik pulak :s anyway, sambil jalan tu belek2 la notes on stuff yg baru discuss dalam kelas tadi..ceyyy, saje je la nak menambah lagi stress..huhu..sekaliii..dengan tak pasal2 nye pegi jerit, 'eee! benci! benci! benci!' dekat tengah2 jalan..haha..masalahnye, siap pejam mate semue n jerit dgn kuat pulak tu! sampai terkejut kot pakcik yg tengah mesin rumput nearby..berkerut2 muke die..haha..ya Allahhh..malu nye..honestly tak sengaje nak menjerit..ingatkan setakat menjerit dalam hati je..subconsciously terjerit betul2 pulak..hmm..ok..since dah malu, jalan la cepat2 sebab obviously nak lari daripade pakcik tu kan..bile rase macam dah jalan agak jauh tu, memang tergelak la teringat reaction pakcik tu td..haha..sambil gelak2 tu boleh pulak membebel sorang2, 'ya Allah, mimi..peliknye la ko ni menjerit sorang2..tak tau malu ke? mesti pakcik tu ingat ko ni ngong'..then continue gelak lagi..mase tu situation tu agak funny la, konon2..sekaliii..bile pusing2 belakang je, ade orang k! :s ya Allahhh..malunyeee..

moving on..after dah jumpe kawan, balik la rumah..time tengah makan tu, tibe2 terdengar jiran sebelah gaduh2..diorang ni one 'loving couple'..haha..perli pulak kan..neway, diorang ni selalu gaduh n each time pon memang dasyat..sampai jerit2 n baling2 barang semue..memang loud n clear la from my room..tibe2, my friend call..borak2 la dengan die..die cerite la pasal this one girl..apparently, she's not over her ex boyfriend yet..ade one time ni, my friend duduk la belakang perempuan tu time dalam klas n my friend nampak how she was drooling over some pictures of d ex boyfriend yg ade dalam laptop die..bukan la nak busybody kn but da problem is, da girl dah ade boyfriend baru..so situation ni agak twisted sikit la..macam kesian je dekat boyfriend baru die tu kan especially because we both know him..so my LOUD response was, 'o my gawsh! this is too much la! just go find another guy to play with, honestly..no one deserves to be treated that way!'..n suddenly..jengjengjeng..there was silence..no sound at all coming from rumah sebelah..ya Allahhh..jiran sebelah ni pon la..suke2 je nak buat assumption..i was on da fon k!! i wasn't screaming at u!! pfft..funny gile la diorang ni! haha..my friend memang ketawe gile on da fon when i told her about it..haha..

kesimpulannye, what a day..~ :p

The King's Speech :)

baru habis tengok cerite the king's speech..it was an amazingly beautiful movie..i was truly moved by every second of it..da best part was, cerite ni cerite betul..therefore, it HAPPENED :)

it was about a 'stammered' king, king george vi (ayah to da current queen elizabeth), n his first wartime speech delivery..imagine being a king yg gagap..imagine having thousands of people waiting for u to say something amazing n d only thing that comes out of your mouth is some weird sounds like 'erk, aaa, kirk'..obviously kite akan rase malu dgn rakyat kite kan because how can u demand respect from them when u can't even speak properly? people looked down on him his whole life termasukla both ayah n abang die..there were times where he just gave up on himself, cried in front of his wife n simply 'raged' at everyone around him..fairly understandable reactions coming from a king..at one point he said:

"If I'm king, where's my power? Can I form a government? Can I levy a tax? Declare a war? No! and yet I am the seat of all authority. Why? because the nation believes that when I speak, I speak for them. But I can't speak...I bloody well stammer!" 

then in walked lionel logue, a brilliant speech therapist who made everything possible..jengjengjeng..fairly old, fairly funny..huhu..this was one of da well-phrased dialogs between them:

King George: Listen to me! Listen to me!

Lionel: Listen to you? By what right?

King George: By divine right if you must, I am your king! 

Lionel: No, you're not. You told me so yourself. You didn't want it. Why should I waste my time listening to you? 

King George: Because I have a right to be heard! I have a voice! 

Lionel: Yes, you do. You have such perseverance, Bertie. You're the bravest man I know. You'll make a bloody good king.

kesimpulan from this movie is, know who u r n overcome your limitations..when you take away people's expectations on you, you might be surprised of what you're capable of doing..insyaAllah :)

A Cheetah Print Shirt :)

this habit of amik gambar diri sendiri is becoming less n less embarrassing everyday..haha..

kesimpulannye, cheetah print is on everything nowadays..shirts, cardigans, pants, shoes n even aprons..haha..i'm serius..neway, saje je beli sebab nak jugak be a part of the 'frenzy'..plus, it was on sale kan..fareha n niena! korang pon patut beli jugak baju ni n we'll deem it as baju sisterhood..haha..hugs~

A Phrase of Wisdom :)

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"Jika engkau menemukan cela pada seseorang dan engkau hendak mencacinya, maka cacilah dirimu. Kerana celamu lebih banyak darinya"

Umar r.a.

New Stuff Untuk Baby Kak Mira + Iwan :D

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superbaby! :p

super comfy romper :)

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1st baju yg sy beli..huhu..

i love da shirt..haha..

t-shirts

tights + shorts lembu ade ekor..haha..

overall robot + socks yg superrr lembut :p

overall giraffe rambu2..haha..

jeans ni besar sikit..maybe next year baru boleh pakai..tapi baju kemeje tu memang untuk newborn..haha..

kesimpulannye, sy tak sabar nak dapat baby nephew! haha..insyaAllah tak lame lagi..aminnn..they might nmpk mcm besar, but semue ni panjang pembaris pendek je..huhu..xoxo, my future-lovable-cuddly-nephew..

Baby Search 2011 :D

ade satu competition baby search dekat mall all over australia now..they r just the cutest bunch ever! these r some of them yg sangat2 cute dalam berape puluh ribu babies entah..huhu..da mothers sampai gaduh2 dengan each other sebab marah baby2 mix compete sekali..siap masuk berite lagi..haha..their babies r amazingly cute..macam no point pon gaduh2..well, enjoy da pictures! :)

tate

alexander

ethan

maddison

amelia

alexis

in conclusion, how can u choose the winner? they r all super cute! :D xoxo..

Presentation Time! :D

first time wearing this untuk presentation..haha..it's very comfortable because tak ketat sangat..bj longgar + skirt besar..memang kalau jalan pon suke hati je..tak payah nak cover2..haha..

kesimpulannye, pakai belt dgn kemeje kosong + half lusuh (beli 4 tahun lepas, seriusli :s) can definitely make a difference..n sy pakai semue ni dgn flats hitam je..senang nak jalan n nampak macam simple..i think la..haha..well, u should try it too..especially yg baru start kerje semalam, isnin 28 february 2011! haha..xoxo..

Love My New Skirt! :D

tried wearing it with different styles dat i'm definitely not used to..haha..

                       

kesimpulannye, tudung still tudung lilit2 n bukan tudung bawal..haha..xoxo peeps! :D